So I went to FHE tonight with the Marsh Creek Branch. We went bowling in Burley. It was ok I guess. People were treating me like they did in high school. Like crap. People I thought were my friends were just acting. I could tell cuz they would look at me and quickly look away. One of my "best friends" tried to come talk to me but there was nothing to talk about. I really hope I can change my life once I get out of here. I have only been away from home for 4 almost 5 months and I loved it. I got to meet new people. People that I knew really cared and weren't acting.

I love the Christmas season. People are always thinking of others and of how they can help. I have had a whole lot of help this year. It's not only during the Christmas season but also the whole year. I don't remember it all from the beginning of the year but I do remember a little.
There are times when I think I don't need any help and there are millions of people who can use my help but then I get to thinking about how selfish I am. There are a lot of people who have helped me. My friends, family, strangers.
In September I moved away from home to Rexburg, Idaho. Sure it is only 2.5 hrs away but I felt like I was leaving a lot of stuff behind. I felt like I would lose my loved ones. It was a couple weeks later that I finally started to feel like I was starting my new life. I was finally feeling like I was being accepted by people. One of my roommates came in my room because she saw me crying. She told me that all of our roommates are here for me and they will always be there if I needed someone to talk to. Of course that only made me cry harder because I finally felt comfort. I finally came to realization that I am not completely alone. After our talk (more like her talk I listen) I started thinking even more about not being alone. I know that no matter where we are we are never alone.
Of course me being me, I still don't go talk to them about anything because I have some pretty high walls up around me. But I must admit they have gone down a little. My roommates and I have talked about a lot of things I wouldn't normally talk to people about.
I am really grateful for all the new friends I have made. They have taught me a lot and I know I will meet more people and see more places. My family will always stick with me and I know I can turn to them when I need to. They will help me with all my trials and challenges that my life will take on.

SWEET!!

Well now that my life is easier, I have decided to make this blog thing to take up some of my time I have to spend on Thursdays. Man I love thursdays. The day I can relax and get caught up on homework and to think about my life and do my favorite thing...WATCH NCIS!!!