Goodbye 2009!!

I know a lot of people are thinking "What is my New Years resolution?". Well, I just figured out mine. I have decided on not worrying about how man sees me, but how God sees me. I don't want to be a person that is looked down upon. I want to be a person that can help lift others spirits like many people have done to me this last year. I have met a whole lot of people and only a few of them really stick out because of the kindness they have shown me. The one on the top of my list is a really good friend from Boise. He came down with my sister and a few of her friends this last summer to go on a trip to Lagoon. An amusement park in Salt Lake City, UT. My sister didnt really know him and of course neither did I. I just knew his name because I asked who was coming down. I didnt expect to stay friends with any of them but its just one of those things that just happen. I am really glad it did. The friends I made from just one summer has really helped me figure out who I am and has also helped me figure out my life. The other people I met on our trip to Lagoon have really cared about me also. I love it when people take time and ask me how my day is going. They are the type of people that do that and that is why I love going to Boise. I spent a lot of my summer up there. They have changes my life and I am ready for the challenges life brings me. I know no matter what I go through, I will always have friends and family to turn to for help. There has been a person who tried telling me I cant depend on my family the rest of my life. Well I got news for him...I will always depend of my family. They are the ones that help me. I guess I cant go to my friends and family for ANYTHING only because I have scared myself into what will happen if I start getting a little deep. I have built walls and I honestly dont think they will ever come down. They might start to come down, but I dont think they will fully come down. I love my family and friend and I am REALLY grateful for all their support and love that they have shown me. There has been A LOT of down hills for me this last year but there has also been some ups. I am ready for 2010 and the journey's it brings.GOODBYE '09! WELCOME 2010!!!

So I went to FHE tonight with the Marsh Creek Branch. We went bowling in Burley. It was ok I guess. People were treating me like they did in high school. Like crap. People I thought were my friends were just acting. I could tell cuz they would look at me and quickly look away. One of my "best friends" tried to come talk to me but there was nothing to talk about. I really hope I can change my life once I get out of here. I have only been away from home for 4 almost 5 months and I loved it. I got to meet new people. People that I knew really cared and weren't acting.

I love the Christmas season. People are always thinking of others and of how they can help. I have had a whole lot of help this year. It's not only during the Christmas season but also the whole year. I don't remember it all from the beginning of the year but I do remember a little.
There are times when I think I don't need any help and there are millions of people who can use my help but then I get to thinking about how selfish I am. There are a lot of people who have helped me. My friends, family, strangers.
In September I moved away from home to Rexburg, Idaho. Sure it is only 2.5 hrs away but I felt like I was leaving a lot of stuff behind. I felt like I would lose my loved ones. It was a couple weeks later that I finally started to feel like I was starting my new life. I was finally feeling like I was being accepted by people. One of my roommates came in my room because she saw me crying. She told me that all of our roommates are here for me and they will always be there if I needed someone to talk to. Of course that only made me cry harder because I finally felt comfort. I finally came to realization that I am not completely alone. After our talk (more like her talk I listen) I started thinking even more about not being alone. I know that no matter where we are we are never alone.
Of course me being me, I still don't go talk to them about anything because I have some pretty high walls up around me. But I must admit they have gone down a little. My roommates and I have talked about a lot of things I wouldn't normally talk to people about.
I am really grateful for all the new friends I have made. They have taught me a lot and I know I will meet more people and see more places. My family will always stick with me and I know I can turn to them when I need to. They will help me with all my trials and challenges that my life will take on.

SWEET!!

Well now that my life is easier, I have decided to make this blog thing to take up some of my time I have to spend on Thursdays. Man I love thursdays. The day I can relax and get caught up on homework and to think about my life and do my favorite thing...WATCH NCIS!!!