Life hard or easy?

It has been a while since I've last written on this blog. So many things have happened. My faith was tested, my patience as well. I must say I feel stronger and, needless to say, happier. I finished my finals today and started on my white glove clean check. I now know how Cinderella felt. Scrubbing the kitchen floor is pure torture! My knees are still hurting.

Now that it is officially the end of the semester I have the weight of the world off my shoulders, I have the best of friends, memories. I have a new friend and I'm hoping to get to know her better. She is coming up here in the fall and I will be here! I'm so excited!

I'm watching a show called Suits now and they are talking about friends and who is good friends and who isn't. This is a good one. I got to thinking about all the friends I have in my life. I must say I have made some pretty good friends. Sure I have made a couple of friends that weren't the best. For some reason I haven't kept contact with any of those friends. Well, actually I bet we can all figure out what the reason is.

Is life hard or easy? My opinion is a little of both :)

Happy life?

I would have to say today was one of the best days I have had in a very long time. First, I got up at about 9. I slept in, but not too late. Second, I got ready for a date with Jared. We doubled with Alley and Curtis! When Curtis and Jared showed up we went over to the guys lounge and I watched them play pool. It wasn't as boring as I thought it would be :). We came back to the girls lounge where Curtis played the piano and Jared met Siara and Ashley. We waited for Alley to get back from her 5K. When she came back we made fruit kabobs and packed up the picnic basket. We grabbed all our stuff and walked to the gardens where we had set up our picnic in one of the pavilions. We had a very good lunch and then walked around the gardens.It was the very first time I had been through all the gardens. It was beautiful. We went up to the Hinkley building and looked out over campus. I loved it. Jared doesn't like heights. I don't blame him. We went back to the pavilion and grabbed our stuff then we walked to the Spori building and went through the art exhibit. After that we walked to the apartment to drop off the picnic stuff then we walked to Curtis's car where they gave us roses! That made me so VERY happy!!! Alley and I are hanging the roses upside down on my NCIS poster :). We went to Pizza Hut and got the pizzas then came back here where Madi, Bama, Lindy, Dave, Ashley, and Kendall were waiting for us. We ate dinner then did finger painting. The date started at 2 and ended at about 830. It was a long date, but the best one I have been on. I LOVED it. I love I have friends that are willing to come all the way up to Rexburg for me. I'm not expecting them to come back up. I guess it's cuz I don't expect anybody to come up here for me. I don't consider myself good enough for people to drive hours just to spend a day with me.

I couldn't ask for better friends. I couldn't ask for a better life. I love my life and the people in it. I love what I'm doing. I love where I am in life. It's hard sometimes and I know I haven't begun to experience the really hard stuff but I know with this gospel, the Lord, my family, and my friends I will be able to get though it.

So, is my life a happy life? I believe so.

Obsessions?

Have you had those things that catches your attention and it helps you forget about your worries, stresses, and disappointments? Music, food, television? I have found that thing. It's called NCIS. Not the copy cat, NCIS:LA. I mean NCIS the original. The best criminal investigative tv series there is! I have been having NCIS marathons with my roommates for a while. We are on season 2 and we will finish all the episodes by the end of the semester. It's a freakout bonding time for us some of the episodes we watch. As a matter of fact, I'm watching it right now! It's taking me longer to write this post than any other one because of NCIS. I have put my homework on hold for the day and I am continuing our marathon. It's kinda exciting watching all these episodes I totally forgot about. The episode we are watching now is a little questionable but it could be worse. It's really bringing out who DiNozzo really is. NEW EPISODE!

So...I guess you can say obsessed :D

Sunday Thoughts

I have delegated the balcony of my apartment complex my thinking/get away spot. I do so much thinking there. I don't know why I never thought of it is previous semesters.

There were so many good talks and lessons today at church. I have had so many question build up in my head. I don't think I have any of the answers.

Have you ever felt ugly while going through trials? Have you felt like the world stares at you when you have a hard trial in your life? Have you felt like the world is against you and there is no way to get back on the world's good side? When you made it through your trial how did you feel? Accomplished? Beautiful? The same?

When trials come they change us, they make us a better person. We can become stronger, more intelligent, happier. God does NOT make perfect people. What's the point in living if you already live a perfect life? Nobody is perfect. There may be times when nothing goes wrong and you think life is perfect but that never lasts. With me, when I have the best week, that usually means I have a hard week full of trials coming my way. There is no way around trying to avoid a bad day if you don't alter your attitude.


When you see someone you know do you take the time to say hi or just ignore them? Do you smile at strangers and ask how their day is going? You never know who's day you are going to make. If you have a bright smiling face, you might just help a person walking home or shopping, become happier. Being grumpy all the time is not fun and will only tear you down. Strive to be happier. Try to have a cheerful attitude when your day isn't the best. Try to remember the feeling you get when you are happy. Remember the friends you have. Remember the family you were raised in. Think of good positive things.

How many times do you have a prayer in your heart? Does it make you feel good? Does it make you feel happy and confident? Do you ever just have a one-on-one with your Father in Heaven on the way to class, work, or even church? Do you ask Him questions you have had on your mind forever? Try having a prayer in your heart everyday. Try to remember who your Father in Heaven is. Try to remember He will always be with you and will never let you go. He is your father and YOU are his child. He hates to see you suffer, but knows you can handle what He throws your way. He wouldn't give you something you couldn't handle.

If you have questions and want the answer right away, try to remember it's not your time that's important. It's God's time that matters. It's in God's time that everything happens. God knows you better than you do. He knows what you need, when you need it better than you.

Remember you are God's child. Remember you are never alone. Remember Him.

Insights

Life's been a little stressful today. I'm still not use to the stress. My roommates probably think I'm super depressed. I did so much homework, my brain is fried! I did a lot of thinking today as well.

I decided I want to become Amish just for a day. No phone, no computer, no tv, no lights. Wouldn't that be great! The only thing is I HAVE to have my computer. There is no way I can keep up on my school work without it. There are so many good things to having school work due online, but I get so tired of staring at a computer screen all day. They want us to study 2 hours for every credit. Are you kidding me?! I don't do it. I do it until I get tired and move on to the next assignment. Bad habit, I know.

Switching gears. Have you ever thought about how you affect other people? Have you ever felt like you weren't good enough? Like your actions weren't good enough? Have you ever thought your opinions or concerns don't matter to the ones you love? I'm sitting here on the balcony of my apartment complex, breathing in the cool Rexburg air, thinking these things. Honestly, I don't know the answers to the questions that are in my head right now. How do I find those answers? There is only one way I can think of and I think those answers will take some time getting to me or maybe that's lifelong questions that won't ever be answered. I'm to the point where I'm being forced to make a decision. I came to realize I need to worry about myself sometimes. I can't try to make everybody happy. If things affect me as hard as they are I need to think of myself and try to see myself with the future that I'm heading towards.

Do I live my own life or try to live a life people want me to live? One of the easiest questions to answer yet, one of the hardest ones to do.

Being a Child

Everybody has had a blast in the past. Some pasts may be a week ago, some a few hours, and some many years ago. We have all went back to our childhood. Whether it be good or bad. We remember the good and the bad times, the friends we have made and still have or the friends we have made and left us, family members we were really close with, the troubles we got in with our friends and siblings or cousins. We might have even remembered games we played or toys we played with. In my Infants and Toddlers class we have to come up with a child's toy and present it to the class. I was thinking about all the toys I had growing up. Barbies, fairies, waffle blocks. Most of them were ones that were factory made. Then I remembered the Manilla folder games we had. They were definitely homemade toys. There were some we had to match the heads to the bodies of the animal. Some we had to match the color with the name. I loved those games. I made one that the child had to match the head to the body but it just didn't seem like the ones I had growing up. I decided to make one where they had to match the fruit with the name. I had to draw the fruit and color them. That took FOREVER.

While I was drawing my fruit last night I got to thinking about all the toys and games kids play today. They don't play with homemade toys. They are all manufactured. The best toys I had growing up were homemade. Homemade toys allow learning and play time. Sure, manufactured toys do the same but the spirit is just different.

I just came to the conclusion my kids will have homemade toys. Sure, it will take a load of time to make them but it will be worth it. I can be able to sit back and say "My kid is playing with the toys I did growing up and he/she is normal." You don't need manufactured toys to make your kids smart. Just use your imagination and intelligence to make those toys for your kids.

So what's your decision? Homemade or manufactured?

Lessons learned?

It has been over a year since I have posted on this blog. I just haven't gotten into it. Lately, I have been experiencing things in my life I thought I already experienced, except this time it is ten times worse than the first time. I don't understand how people can handle so much stress. I have unloaded a lot of on my friends. I honestly don't know what I would do without them. I do have my secret worries just like anyone else.

School is the main worry I have. I am taking thirteen credits this summer and I also have a job as a Teacher's Assistant here at school. But the job is nothing. All I do is sort papers, cut fabric, make copies, etc. I'm almost like a secretary. My interior design is probably my favorite class. I just got to mess with paint. I had to mix paints and come up with different colors. Now we moved on to the floor plans. I'm kinda nervous about that but I always have time to learn something new.

I had the worst week of my life last week. So many things were going wrong and I felt like my whole world was crashing down on my at once. I didn't have any room to breath. I was reading in a book called "True to the Faith" and I had read the happiness topic. I learned so many things in that five mins that I totally forgot about. I was searching for the wrong things to make me happy. I was looking for happiness from worldly things such as, money, food, entertainment, etc. I didn't think about turning to my Father in Heaven. I was too caught up in trying to fix everything I totally forgot I'm never alone. I needed to turn to Heavenly Father and not entertainment. After that one night of praying so hard I don't think I have felt any closer to my Father in Heaven. I still have so much stress on me but I know I am being looked after. I have friends and family that will be there for me if I ask them for help.

So are the lessons learned? I think so.